Multiple Sclerosis and stress are not best friends but hated enemies.
Yesterday was one of the most stressful and upsetting days I have had in a very long time.
We had tried to do something good for others and it came back to bite us in the a**. I have learned that you will see the true side of someone when you least expect it.
But thanks to yesterday I had an even worse night than the previous two and my MS is officially exacerbated.
I hate how just one day of being overwhelmed, stressed or upset can harm a human body as much as it does. It has been a very long time since I have had I uncontrollable chills and they have been nonstop since about four am.
This is the one week too that I don’t need my MS to act up as well. The list of what I have to do is extremely long.
I had hoped to go out to out camp next week and spend the week doing nothing more than writing while Resa played but after yesterday that is the last place I want to be, which is sad that this is what it has come down to.
I am even in a more bah humbug mood than before and not looking forward to Christmas at all. I had wanted to sit down with my mom and work on a book idea we had been working on and can’t even find the joy and anticipation in that.
I have been fighting depression for a few weeks now and it is winning the battle right now.
Pre MS I was able to handle stress and it never once bothered me. I thrived on stress. Now it takes everything out of me.
This is truly one of those days where I desperately wish I could hide from the world yet instead I get to go chaperone a field trip today.
On the bright side I get to go see Frosty The Snowman and Rudolph with munchkin.